this evening...

Hello there. Welcome.

I was sorely tempted to paint my fingernails black a minute ago. But I didn't give in and so here I am. Maybe I'll paint them black whenever I do my ripped up heart shot for Joe. See, here's my original.



And Joe said to rip the heart up, which I think is a good idea. So... One of these days, I shall.

First sign that I'm in a rebellious/depressed mood, I start listening to rock/punk music.

Like this--
I'm Not Okay (I Promise)"

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Yeah. Thats by My Chemical Romance.

I'm leaving now. Farewell.